Lauren Elizabeth Pacenta

Thinking of you on 4th of July.Anniversaries and holiday’s are a very lonely and difficult time for us without our child.

When we lose someone that we Love
And the loss is too great to bear
Our friends are there to comfort us
To show they deeply care.

Yet in the very darkest hours
When no one is around
When saddened and so lonely
That's where God's love can be found.

Know that He is beside You
He has been there from the start
Just reach out and ask for help
He will heal Your aching heart.

Sweet Lauren,
You are always in my prayers.
xxxooo

Those we love don't go away,
They walk beside us every day,
Unseen, unheard, but always near,
Still loved, still missed and very dear.

Sweet Beautiful Lauren & Wonderful Mom Jo-Ann,

I cannot tell you how I feel or there are not any words to express how I met such wonderful families on my babies site
and all the other beautiful families and their beautiful children. It is like I have known all of you for such a long time.
No matter which site I go to I read the whole life story of each child every time. Even though I have read them already.
That is why I feel like they are family to me. I also cry each and every time. I am trying to get back to each family that continue to write to my Joey. I just put my Mother in a Nursing Home and I am there everyday to feed her.
I was taking care of her for 5 1/2 months at home, until I could no longer do it by myself.
I am now taking care of my father, and I am just exhausted. My father is starting to get the same thing as my mom and it is a nightmare.
She has Alzmheimer's Disease. I have been a nurse for 38 years, when my baby was taken from me
I went out on medical leave and I did try to go back on 3 different occasion's and I could no longer do it I did not want to 
put my patient's at risk with my frame of mind. Since my Joey, it took some time but, I did write a book.
I thought it would help many Mom's & families. I had to put everything on hold.
I had book signing, readings, etc. I am actually on my second book but of course I had to stop in the middle of writing and put that also on hold.As you know families of course come first.
I am still in mourning over my baby and will be until my time comes & I am reunited with my Joey once again.
I am hoping with all my "heart" that my book will help others. You can get any and all information at www.deborahdematthews.com
But I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for writing to my Joey.
To my dearest friend,
Love to each and every one,
Love,
Debbie/Joseph's Mom.  I also want everyone to know that any proceeds from the book is going to charity, school's, church's
and families that lost a love one unexpected, in Joey's name, to me it is keeping my Joey's name alive.
xxxooo
Never forget Lauren is always in my daily prayers, I hope she heard me this am.