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Be open to your dreams, people. Embrace that distant shore. Because our mortal journey is over all too soon.David Assael


 

 

 

 Beautiful Graphic created by Teri Drebit ~ mom of Jaime
 http://jaimeleigh-drebit.last-memories.com


This memorial website was created with love to remember our dearest Lauren Elizabeth Pacenta who was born in United States, New York on October 4, 1988 and passed away on November 23, 2005 at the tender age of 17. You will live forever in our memories and hearts dear Lauren.

Lauren was the only child of Jo-Ann Pacenta and the late Edward K. Pacenta. She was a 7 pound miracle who brought tremendous joy into our lives. Our lives changed with the birth of this beautiful baby, and we treasured her from the moment she was born. 

I will always feel truly blessed to be her mother. She was a very kind, thoughtful, loving daughter. She gave me beautiful, thoughtful gifts, wrote special notes, poems and letters to me. We enjoyed being together, and I have so many special memories. We shared so much, both the happiness and the heartaches. When her father passed away, and I would cry, she would hug me and say, "but you still have me." Oh how I wish that were still true. I miss her every moment of every day. She truly was the light of my life and filled my heart with love.

 Beautiful Graphic created by Teri Drebit ~
 mom of Jaime
http://jaimeleigh-drebit.last-memories.com


Time moves in such strange ways now, all the days, weeks, and months, just blend together. Some days the urge to just see Lauren, or to hear her say even one word is so strong, I can hardly bear it. For 17 years, one month and 19 days, I was blessed with a beautiful, loving daughter.

 

 Beautiful Graphic by Irena Hill, nanny to precious Kayleigh Erceg...Thank you

http://kayleigh-erceg.memory-of.com/Candles.aspx?c=1


 

Beautiful Graphic by Jojo Tinkham, mom of Carl

I light a candle every day
  Hoping the pain will fade away.
But with the dawn of each new day
I realize you're still gone

 

May this candles burn forever in your memory my precious child.

 

 Whispers
I whisper your name.... to myself.
I whisper....Happy birthday, and I love you.
I whisper....I still think of you.
I whisper....Goodnight and till we meet again.
I whisper....I wish you were still here and hope your angel ears can hear my whispers here on earth.
I whisper....because I am afraid that if I speak too loud, my heart will hear and break again....
So I just whisper........

 
I love you Lauren......

 




Beautiful Graphic by Adine Wilson, Thank you Adine


 Thank you for the beautiful graphic Cheryl, mom of Kyle Roy

 


 

  Angel Sunrise

Have you ever seen a sunrise
That was streaked with pink and gold
It's called an Angel Sunrise
Is the story I've been told.

They streak the sky with color
To lift our spirits high
They paint with lovely colors
As through the clouds they fly.

These Angels have a special task
They brighten up our day
Our skies they color lovely
To begin a golden day.

The next time that you see a sky
That's gold and pink and bright
Look carefully and you might see
The Angel that's in flight.

(Charlotte Anselmo)

 

Thank you for the beautiful graphic Cheryl, mom or Kyle Roy....

 

 Lauren graciously gave us seventeen years of memories and smiles. As she grew into a beautiful young woman she continued to carry her childhood outlook on life with her...always young at heart ~  she was only 17..... She left us with her gifts of compassion and caring. She was also bright, athletic, beautiful, funny and had a smile that would light up a room. 

 

 
Beautiful Graphic by LaRaine Jimenez, mom of angel Cynthia Hernandez

Precious Daughter of mine,
forever my little Girl.
Your life on earth,
brought me pure joy.

I watched you each day,
as you developed and grew.
My life was complete,
peaceful and true.

The day that you left,
my heart suddenly stopped.
I fell to the ground,
my body just dropped.

I refused to believe,
this horrible fate.
My world lost its sun,
my soul felt the weight.

My only friend now,
are the tears that I weep.
The piercing pain in my heart,
is infinitely deep.

My mind shall forever,
repeatedly ask why,
The lonely answer,
will be the tears that I cry.


Thank you Colin Stratford, my forever friend,
 and grandfather to
precious angel Alliyah...





(Beautiful Graphic by LaRaine Jaminez, mom of ^i^ Cynthia Hernandez)

Remember me with all your love
And with pain or with sorrow
Though I'm not with you, I feel your love
Yesterday, today and tomorrow.

It was special to be your child
For the time I was there
Cherish our memories together
Even when you think life isn't fair.

Though I may not be there with you
I am always around
Sometimes I do apear to you
A butterfly, a song or in a friend you have found.

Remember me with a joyful heart
Along with happiness and love
These are the things that keep me alive
Forever within your heart...


Coleman Doyle Alldredge



  If tears could build a stairway

and thoughts a memory lane
I'd walk right up to heaven
and bring you home again
No Farewell words were spoken
No time to say good-bye
You were gone before I knew it
And only God knows why.

My heart's still active in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one can ever know.



 
   

(Thank you LaRaine Jaminez, mom of ^i^ Cynthia Hernandez)

Dearest Mom

When you wonder
the meaning of life and love,
Know that I am with you
Close your eyes and feel me kissing you
in the gentle breeze across your cheek.

When you begin to doubt
that you shall ever see me again,
Quiet your mind and hear me,
I am in the whisper of the heavens,
Speaking of your love.

When you lose your identity,
When you question who you are,

Where you are going...
Open your heart and see me,
I am the twinkle of the stars
Smiling down upon you...
Lighting the path for your journey.

When you awaken each morning,
Not remembering your dreams
But feeling content and serene,
Know that I was with you,
Filling your nights with thoughts of me.

When you linger in the remnant pain,
Wholeness seeming so unfamiliar,
Think of me.
Know that I am with you
Touching you through the shared tears
Of a gentle friend easing the pain.

As the sunrise illuminates the desert sky,
As that breathtaking brilliance
awakens your spirit,
Think of our time together...
All too brief...but ever brilliant.

When you are certain of us together,
When you are certain of your destiny,
Know that God created that moment in time
Just for us.

I am with you always.

~Author Unknown~




 




 I Still Feel Your Love
I know you’re gone from this earth
You left me way too soon
But I feel your love every time
I gaze up at the moon.
Sometimes I think I hear
A whisper in the wind
It sounds as if you’ve called my name
As your love to me you send.

Sometimes I do a silly thing
And your laughter fills my ears
I know you’re right here with me
But I can’t see you through my tears.
I felt your hand upon my shoulder
And I quickly turned to see
Visible... you were not
But I know you’re here with me.

In the night you sometime come
To visit in my dreams
My hands go out to touch you
But you’re just out of reach it seems.
For just a flash you appear
Standing close to me
Is it just my imagination
Or is it really you I see.
Even though you’re gone from me
And you watch me from above
I long for you everyday…
And I still feel your love.
~ Charlotte Anselmo ~

 

 


 

 Thank you for the beautiful graphic Colleen, mom of Patrick Carroll

 

    You've stepped across to
heaven's shore
And we are but a breath behind,
Holding dear the truth that
All that bound us close on earth
Binds us still --

For love endures forever.......

(Author unknown)


 

We were a small family of three.  The happiest days of my life were my wedding day and the day Lauren was born.  I will remember both these days always and forever as well as my beloved daughter and husband who are together again.

 

  

  Oh how Lauren loved being with her father. She loved to help him outside, to watch and help him in the garden and to cut wood for the fireplace. He cut the wood small, it worked better in the fireplace, but also Lauren was able to help him carry the wood. I would stand at the window and watch the two of them, with such love and pride in my heart.  After her father passed away, she would smile and just be so proud when I told her how much she resembled her father - she loved the things he loved .  He was a terrific chef, and Lauren was very creative, loved cooking and baking.  He loved to read poetry and she loved to both write and read poetry. She loved the food he loved, ...and the list goes on. ..How does a child ever come to terms with the loss of a parent at such a young age?

Lauren and Izzy

 Whenever we got a new puppy, it was for Lauren.  Somehow we ended up with four dogs.  Sadie was the one that was truly hers.  Lauren fed her, trained her and loved her.  After Lauren passed away, our Samoyed, Izzy, started taking walks. She had never left the property until then. I think she was searching for Lauren. Sadly, Izzy, passed away several months after Lauren. Lauren often said she didn't remember life without Izzy. Lauren was 17 and Izzy was 15. They were together for a long time.



Lauren's Sadie looks so sad without her

  This was the last picture of Lauren and me taken together. 

Thank you Kendy Marie for the beautiful graphic of Lauren and me.

 

 Lauren wrote the following poem for me. What could be a more precious gift from a daughter to her mother than the following: 

Mama Bear
My best friend was always there for me when times got rough.
She was someone I could tell my secrets to and someone I could trust.
We shared our wishes, dreams, and fantasies,
We always liked the very same things.
We were together through laughter and together through tears.
For both of us, our friendship is so very dear.
When I needed help she was always there.
When I was upset, she always cared.
Sticking together through school years of hell,
I then knew that we were gonna be best friends always & forever.
Our friendship was like a fairy tale straight from a book.
Not a flaw anywhere, no matter where you looked,
the way a best friend should be forever and ever.
Our love so strong for one another
I'll always love my best friend, for she is my mother.
(©Lauren Pacenta 2005)

To my precious Lauren

I miss waking you in the morning, knowing that you would always ask for 10 more minutes.

I miss when you would yell down to me to ask what time it was on the kitchen clock.


I miss you calling to me and asking me which shoes looked better with your outfit.

I miss standing across the kitchen island from you as you gulped down something to eat and I drank coffee in the morning.

I miss watching you pull out of the garage - I would throw you a kiss and you would wave and smile. 

I miss coming home and seeing your car in the garage, knowing you were home, or hearing the garage door open and feeling relieved knowing that you had arrived home safely.

I miss the text messages we sent to each other throughout the day.

I miss finding you online during the day and our messages to each other.

I miss coming home and seeing you on the computer or being home and knowing you were in the study on the computer.
 

I miss your loud music, which seemed to make the walls vibrate.


I miss our long talks, either riding in the car or when you would call me to your room or come into my room. I would rub your back and we would talk.

I miss our shopping trips, going out to dinner after church, watching movies together, making smoothies or hot chocolate, baking and cooking together.

I miss sitting on your bed, rubbing your back when you didn't feel well, or just sitting on the stool in your room talking to you.
 

I miss finding notes from you, sometimes in the morning thanking me for something or telling me your problems which were sometimes easier for you to write than to say.
 

I also miss you coming to me when you were upset over the shit happening in school. Even though we spoke of it often, I cannot even imagine how bad it was for you.
 

I miss kissing you good night and hearing you say "I love you Mom" and I would say "I love you too."


I miss your smile, the sound of your voice, the sound of your laugh and looking into your sparkling eyes.

More than anything I miss your presence in the house.

I would give anything to hear one more time: "I'm home mom."

I miss everything about you. Every day is so incredibly hard without you. It so sad that your life was cut short, and that you won't get to live the dreams you had for yourselfI spray your favorite cologne and I immediately get a vision of you coming into the kitchen in the morning, always smelling so sweet. I never failed to tell you how good you looked or how good you smelled. I was always amazed that you asked my advise and actually liked what I said. Oh how I wish for another morning like those.

I miss you Lauren and I will love you always and forever - Mom

Thank you for the beautiful graphic Edwina, mom of Troy Mitchell.....

 

Thank you to my sister Crystal, memories of our children growing up together, blowing bubbles.

Love and hugs to you always...

 

 Graphic of Lauren, Aunt Crystal, Nick and Dylan by Cathy Giraud, mom of David Giraud, thank you Cathy


 

 Thank you Ruth, sister of Carlos

 

 

Beautiful Graphic by LaRaine, mom of angel Cynthia Hernandez 

My mom is a survivor,

or so I've heard it said.
But I hear her crying late at night
when others are in bed.

I watch her lay awake at night
and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her
to help her understand.

But like the sands upon the beach
that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mom,
who thinks of me each day.

She wears a smile for others...
A smile of disguise.
But through heaven's door
I see the tears flowing from her eyes.

My mom tries to cope with death
to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her,
knows it is her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving mom...
Through heaven's open door
I try to tell her that angels
protect me forevermore.

I know that doesn't help her
or eases the burden she bears.
If you get a chance, go and visit her...
and show her that you care.

For no matter what she says...
No matter what she feels
My surviving mommy has
a broken heart
That time won't ever heal.
-Author Unknown
 

 

(Thank you LaRaine Jaminez, mom of ^i^ Cynthia Hernandez)

A Message to my Daughter
We walked together, you and I
A Mother and her Daughter
We had Hopes and Dreams for tomorrow.....
But tomorrow didn't come.
We walked together you and I
We talked, we laughed we loved.
We shared so many happy times,
And for that I thank the Lord above.
We walked together, you and I
But only for a short time.
For all too soon it ended
Leaving pieces of a broken heart behind
And even though I miss you
More than words could ever say.
I thank God that I got to walk with you
Every precious moment of every day....
Thank you Irena Hill, it is truly a beautiful message.
http://kayleigh-erceg.memory-of.com


 

(Thank you LaRaine Jaminez, mom of ^i^ Cynthia Hernandez)

 Dear Lauren
If I could have a lifetime wish
A dream that would come true.
I'd pray to God with all my heart
for yesterday and you.
A thousand words can't bring you back.
I know because I've tried.
And neither will a million tears,
 I know because I've cried.
You left behind my broken heart, and happy memories too.
I never wanted memories though,
I only wanted you.
~Author Unknown~

 
 


  

Message from Heaven

I have not turned my back on you,
So there is no need to cry,
I am watching you from Heaven,
Just beyond the morning sky;
I have seen you almost fall apart,
When you could barely stand,
I asked the Lord to comfort you,
And I watched him take your hand.
He told me you were in more pain,
Than I could ever be,
He wiped his eyes and swallowed hard,
Then gave your hand to me;
Although you may not feel my touch;
Or see me by your side,
I've whispered that I love you,
While I wiped each tear you cried.
~Author Unknown~

Thank You for the beautiful poem LuAnn, mom of angel Bob Demartino

 

 Her Smile is in the Summer
Her grace is in the breeze
She did not leave, she is not gone
It's only we that grieve.

It doesn't take a special day
To bring you to our m
inds
A day without a thought of you
Is very hard to find.

No longer in our hearts to share
But in our hearts you're always there
The parting and the heartaches
No one can ever heal
But our memories for safekeeping
No one can ever steal.
~ unknown ~
(Thank you to the parents of Vanessa Borg)

 

Thank you to the family of Angel William Scott Myers...

 

 


 

 

Thank you Cathy Giraud,  mom of David Giraud

 

 Thank you for the beautiful graphic Cindy Dooley, mom of Angels BJ, Wayne and Buck Outlaw.

 

I Miss You Lauren
I miss your laughter, fun and gentleness.
I miss the things I used to do for you.
I miss the time, now filled with emptiness,
When each day was a stage for something new.
I miss your love, though mine for you remains,
A passion with no outlet to the sea,
A teardrop in the desert, that contains
What's left of my maternal ecstasy.
I miss your presence, like a silent cord
That anchored even solitude in grace.
I miss, for my love's labor, the reward
On seeing some small pleasure on your face.
All these I miss, and yet they are all here
Within my heart, far more than I can bear.
~ Nicholas Gordon ~

 

 

Thank you Tina Thompkin, mom of Angel Michael Grayson.






A beautiful Graphic by Barbara Lanieri, mom of Danny

Beautiful graphic by Jenny Tavendale.


If Roses grow in Heaven Lord,
Please pick a bunch for me
and put them in my daugher's arms
and tell her they're from me.
Tell her I love her and I miss her very much
and when she turns to smile,
place a kiss upon her cheek
and hold her for awhile.
Remembering her is easy,
I do it every day,
but there is an ache within my heart
that will never go away.

 

Forever in our hearts dear Lauren.....

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

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Latest Condolences
Edwina~Troy Mitchells mum Happy Heavenly Birthday dear Lauren October 4, 2017
 









JOAN~ROBERT'S SISTER LAUREN HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR THE 4TH OF OCTOBER GB October 3, 2017
 
Happy Birthday Neon Cake
Debbie DeMatthews Lauren/ Jo-Ann September 3, 2017
 
My Dear Friend,  I want to thank you so much for lighting a candle for my beautiful Joey. I am so sorry I really haven't written anyone for awhile.  I have had so many personal family members that have passed away. My younger brother who was 8 yrs. younger than me and I have always taken care of him since he was a baby.  I don't for a minute every forget about Lauren and you. My prayers and thoughts are always with you. All the mothers and their child that they loss. I will never be the same again without my Joseph. I am sure you are the same way. I will always hurt and have that emptyness inside of me. Of course with the holidays coming around again I just can't take it. It just seems like it gets worse every year.  I want to thank you again.  Always remember you and Lauren are always in my prayers and thoughts.     Love always Debbie Joseph's mom. 
Edwina~Troy Mitchells mum Thinking of you Lauren June 12, 2017
 




                   Thinking of you and your beautiful family ♥

Kelli George's mom Lorraine My Memory Library by Sarah Blackstone May 8, 2017
 
Imagine if I was given one moment, just a single slice of my past. I could hold it close forever, and that moment would always last. I'd put the moment in a safe, within my hearts abode. I could open it when I wanted, and only I would know the code. I could choose a time of laughing, a time of happiness and fun. I could choose a time that tried me, through everything I've done. I sat and thought about what moment, would always make me smile. One that would always push me, to walk that extra mile. If I'm feeling sad and low, if I'm struggling with what to do. I can go and open my little safe, and watch my moment through. There are moments I can think of, that would lift my spirits everytime. The moments when you picked me up, when the road was hard to climb. For me to only pick one moment, to cherish, save and keep, Is proving really difficult, as I've gathered up a heap! I've dug deep inside my heart, found the safe and looked inside, there was room for lots of moments, in fact hundreds if I tried. I'm building my own little library, embedded in my heart, for all the moments spent with you, before you had to part. I can open it up whenever I like, pick a moment and watch it through, My little library acts as a promise, I'll never ever forget you
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